We keep on running in a quest to find ourselves.

We keep on looking, searching and hoping we’ll find something.

Someday.

We do everything we can to numb our feelings. We hope to become emotionless. We close ourselves off in an attempt to become immune to pain.

Ultimately, what we’re running away from is not pain.

What we are running away from is the ONE thing that scares us the most. The exact same thing we crave the most.

LOVE.

We run away from it because we think to ourselves: love is too scary.

What if it’s not true? What if I’m mistaken? What if I lose it one day? What if this leads to suffering? What if I am the only one loving?

This love will go away some day, nothing lasts forever.

We doubt ourselves so much. We doubt that love is real. We doubt that it will even last.

We keep on running because we have been wired to think that love equals pain. It’s one of the ego’s biggest tricks played on humanity.

And most importantly, we run and hide because we know that – in the presence of love – we’ll be forced to look at all the places within us that need to released and healed.

And that scares us to death. Because we have become so accustomed to our old ways, we are afraid of who we might become in the presence of love.

Because once it’s there, love purifies and transforms everything on its way. Like a torch in the dark.

We know that love will enter our darkest and deepest corners of our soul that we’d rather have buried.

We know that love will force us to look into those hidden places and face the truth we’ve been hiding away from for so long.

And this terrifies us.

Because this means personal transformation. This means change.

This means things will not be the same again. This means we will have to become more aware of WHO we really are.

And we are afraid of that NEW person. Because we do not know that person yet.

We believe we will lose ourselves by allowing love to enter our soul, when in reality we will actually find ourselves.

In the presence of love, we do not lose ourselves – but we DO lose something.

We lose all the illusions, all the lies, all the mis-perceptions. We let go of what love is NOT.

We have become so good at lying to ourselves.

But we cannot keep on running and hiding forever.

Sooner or later, our only option is to surrender, trust and say:

As the song goes…

Love, may your will be done.